i am ridiculously pleased with the fact that my 3-year-old daughter now knows how to manipulate a mouse and play dress-up flash games on the PC.

but now she wants to always play on my laptop, and is exercising another newfound skill: using emotional blackmail. O_O

she's past the stage of throwing tantrums when she doesn't get what she wants, now she'll just look at you and say, "mommy.. laro ako mouse sa computer.. (let me play with mouse on the computer..) pwease.. *sniff*"

hahahaha ..huhu. T_T

my baby's at the hospital. she's had diarrhea for a few days now.

she got admitted sunday night; aru and i only went home tonight to pack more supplies.

kaida's stable now, though (wreaking havoc in the pedia ward, in fact). but we have to stay there a few more days to completely flush out whatever's making her stomach bad.

would appreciate your prayers, thanks.

kaida's second birthday last november 25 was great! thanks to all who came. ^__^v

will try to post pics/vids (mostly vids though as i tried out our new vidcam that day) as soon as i get things together.

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the ame gakuensai event was v.grand. i can only be amazed at how accomplished the org has become. kudos. ^^

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went to the ppc christmas get-together last sunday with kaida. she went swimming at the pool, but got cold and didn't want to stay long. >__< it's only the third time she's gone swimming, the first one at a hot spring and the second time at the beach, so i guess she's not used to cold pool water yet.

the party was fun, aru and i won original discs for war of the ring and ground control 2. ^^v

aru didn't win the call of duty 4 tourney though, he got owned by aggroelf during the prelims. XD

after swimming, playing with nadia (her new ~*friend*~!) and gobbling up dinner, kaida fell asleep in an upstairs room so we took the opportunity to drink socialise. ^__^

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i admit it. i have a complex love/hate relationship with lineage2. =.=

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have been damn busy! will catch up with replies and memes soon.

i turned the page of our wall calendar yesterday to show the new month, only to find that the page for october was missing.

my primary suspect is kaida, as she loves reaching up to the calendar and looking at the pretty pictures. >.>

it's a very exciting time for us as kaida is finally developing her communication skills and is wanting to talk more and more!

yesterday afternoon, kaida and i were poring over her favorite book which had puzzles and electrostatic stickers (shushal!):

kimi: *points* fish!
kaida: *holds up fish sticker* pish!
kimi: *points* boy!
kaida: bo-i!
kimi: say it as 'booooy.'
kaida: bo-i!
kimi: ~_~ okay, next one.. toy!
kaida: toy!
kimi: very good!
kaida: *chants* bo-i toy! bo-i toy! boi toy! boi toy!
aru: ano ba yang tinuturo mo sa anak natin?!
kimi: O__O

i never get tired of watching kaida and the numerous expressions that pass across her face every few seconds. it's as if you can truly see the wonder in her eyes when she encounters something new. and the concentration when she is exploring that new thing. and the alarm when this new thing does something unexpected. and the delight afterwards.

it is one of the things i truly love in young children.. that they never bother to hide behind masks, that they know what they feel and they let you know it as well.

after around two hours of working straight, i would emerge from our room and kaida would eagerly run towards me like she hasn't seen me in ages. and then she would give this Mighty Aru-like Frown™ whenever i have to go back to work.

in the morning, she would toss about indicating she was waking up - maybe breastfeed a bit more - and then would heave herself upwards and kiss mommy on the lips, then laugh and shimmy off the bed, look for my slippers and not her own, and then open the bedroom door (yes, she can do this now and it's giving us additional gray hairs) and run off with my her big slippers slapping on the floor waking up everyone in the house.

i fear the day when she'll begin hiding her feelings from her mother, hiding little secrets, feeling awkward with kissing or hugging her parents in public as most teenagers are wont to do.. although i do hope to be able to bring her up right, such that she learns the strength that comes with the open expression of love.

i can teach her this, but i cannot control what the rest of the world teaches her. who knows if someday somebody will hurt her enough, such that it gets implanted in her brain and in her heart that she must guard her feelings because this makes her vulnerable?

and living in a tired world wherein everyone must adopt the sophisticated 'been there, done that' attitude! somebody please prevent me from knocking these people in the head with a feeding bottle.

i would so dearly want to shield my daughter from such people and circumstances, but alas, it would also be detrimental for her not to learn these things by personal experience. she would need to know how it is to be hurt, and the only thing i can truly do is teach her how to rise above the pain.

it is a gut-wrenching thought for a mother. one can only do what one can. this seems like bullshit for one who can be a control freak. (i can't help but laugh at myself at this point. XD)

for now, i make the times count. i really don't want to get ahead of myself by thinking these thoughts now that she's still a baby, but it's these thoughts that make me truly appreciate every single moment of her young life.

my baby turned 14 months old today. ^^

on november 25, 2006, kaida will be celebrating her first birthday. \o/

the celebration will be held here at our house. it's a saturday, and it'll start around 1pm.

i would like to invite all of you, especially ninongs and ninangs. i don't know if we can accommodate all of you, though. XD bahala na LOL. the more, the merrier? ^^;;

please confirm if you can come so that we more or less have an idea how many are going. ^^v

posting randomly.

i guess i'm generally in an odd mood. the onset of october always makes me feel a little giddy with building excitement for my day at the end of the month. haha i guess i'm always like that with special days.

however, recent turbulent events throw in a negative vibe to building excitement, resulting in a rather odd mix of plain ngslkdrhtskksdjfhtgkwenrg.

..i feel restless. i feel as if there this grand canyon-sized gap that i have to jump across to get to something.. and i don't know what that something is. forgive the rather lame attempt at waxing poetic, i guess i just don't know how to describe this feeling. XD

( where do i start this rather long rambling discussion/rant/general wth? )

my baby is five months old today, yay!

took care of her documents in city hall yesterday. don't ask why it's just now we processed it, effin' inept hospital people botched them up.

thanks slaves and louie for being able to come without much prior notice to serve as on-the-spot witnesses. big big thanks. >_<

effin' city hall people were also inept. four people on a single station stated two different versions of what was needed to be done, for chrissakes. had to go around unnecessarily, causing me to spend too much time away from my baby. when i got home she was so hungry. T^T

she doesn't like formula milk, or even expressed milk on a bottle. she doesn't like synthetic. this also shows in her choice of toys. she quickly loses interest in her premade toys, but is absolutely mad about paper or plastic bags which she likes to crumple up and tear apart. o_O

anyway.

my baby is five months old today, yay!

lol.